Sleepy Days

These days I just keep on feeling so sleepy. Was just telling my friend that if you're sleepy at the beginning of the semester, that means too much of sleep during holidays; but if you're sleepy during the semester, that means too little sleep.

Unfortunately, I think for my case it's the case of too much sleep. I slept a whole lot from last night all the way to this morning because I was feeling that my body was starting to heat up internally the previous day and I don't want to fall sick. Now I have that funny feeling again :(

Nothing too much happened these two days. Phoenix has had its first meeting and through that first meeting I finally had that sense of belonging to Phoenix. The workload is not too bad either, just three articles for one whole academic year! More like writing three project reports (around 5-8 pages), but loads more fun! I know I don't write spectacularly, but I think it's easier to write things from a Year 3 student's point of view rather than from a freshman's. I remember struggling in RH-Ed because of that. And oh! There's no stipulated deadline until next semester! Oh joy! :D If you're Jerome, and you're reading this do note that I'll try and hand in my articles early, and will get things done properly. Haha.

I just gone my lab report done yesterday. Labs are kind of interesting this year. We get to do 'role play' and we rotate four different roles each week: Leader, Experimenter, Analysts, and Researcher. For 5 member-groups like mine, there are two analysts per session (which seems to bring more trouble than convenience). I was leader for the previous report, and the horrors of compiling rojak work was so terrible that I thought I'd rather do discussions instead. LOL

Hmm. Can't think of what update already. It's half way through Week 5 and soon I'll reach recess week which means it's half way through the semester already. I thought I was going to do Industrial Attachment this coming semester, but it turns out that I was allocated to do IA in my final year instead. Trying to appeal for a change now, but might not be able to get it. The prospects of doing IA for half year then returning to do FYP presentation and then graduate doesn't sound quite so fun. But then again, if my performance is good, the company will only have to wait for another half a year for me to work.

Decisions, decisions. Praying and waiting for God's lead.

Worry Not

Today's sermon was about not worrying to live a live of joy, because worrying kills joy. Quite apt because I've been losing sleep lately worrying about numerous things, which is quite uncommon. :( I used not to lose sleep over things.


I like pastor's pink elephant illustration. :) If I ask you to think about a pink elephant vividly and suddenly ask you to stop doing so, you can't really stop. Unless you're thinking of something else.

And if we're worrying the only way to stop thinking about what we're worrying about and replace it with something else. Paul tells us what to think instead:

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.

Phil 4: 8-9

The fact that we worry is because our focus is on the problem but not on God. An elementary fact, but often forgotten. And another thing is, if we're worrying chances are our relationship with God is in trouble, hence we know that He won't bless the work of our hands when we're not walking right with Him.

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.

Phil 4: 6

Hopefully I can take these verses to heart and worry not, instead of being a worry wart :) Hey, they rhyme! Kind of.

On a side note,

1. I'm keeping all the campus song books! That means I can bring a book down to play whenever I want to. :) I always forget the melodies of the songs but now I have all the lyrics I can play everything! Well, not really everything, just everything I know how to sing.

2. First CME meeting today and I showed that I'm Most Enthu Member of the cultural group for being the only member that turned up. Somehow I have this feeling that it's Farid who made CME what it is and all hyped and enthu and from the time the baton passed to me, enthusiasm ebbed away. Maybe is started with my leadership, maybe it did not. But CME is the only comm I have joined for 3 years running and I'm planning to enjoy being in it no matter what other people do or don't do.

The things I'm fretting over are still there. But I know God is there above them too.

Personality Test

The results say that I'm Phlegmatic Melancholy. Melancholy! I thought that's the last thing I am because I never seem to get depressed. =p If you want to take the test please click here.

Anyway most of it is quite accurate. Here are the four personalities and my results.

Phlegmatic: 63%. 13 strengths, 12 weaknesses.
Melancholy: 20%. 1 strength, 7 weaknesses. I'm not only melancholic, but on the dangerous end too. =.=
Sanguine: 15%. 5 strengths, 1 weakness.
Choleric: 3%. 1 strength, no weaknesses.
I'm just going to post the characteristics of a few more dominant features and comment about them :)

Phlegmatic Strengths

The Phlegmatic's Emotions

• Low-key personality - Accurate
  
• Easygoing and relaxed - Quite
  
• Calm, cool and collected -Only when there are no deadlines and exams.
  
• Patient well balanced -Err... I suppose you can say that.
  
• Consistent life - Hmm. Ya. Consistently messy table.
  
• Quiet but witty - I like dry jokes but does that make me witty?
  
• Sympathetic and kind - Errr...? To a certain limited degree.
  
• Keeps emotions hidden - Yup I suppose so. I'm very careful of what I blog about.
  
• Happily reconciled to life - Yea true!
  
• All-purpose person - What does this mean? All purpose. Hmm.
  

The Phlegmatic As A Parent

• Makes a good parent - Ahem. But I thought I'd never want to be a parent.
  
• Takes time for the children - *Imagines.* Doesn't sound like me. =p
  
• Is not in a hurry - No! I always want to arrive early.
  
• Can take the good with the bad - OK I think so.
  
• Doesn't get upset easily - Yup :)
  

The Phlegmatic At Work

• Competent and steady - I hope so! Please please let this be accurate.
  
• Peaceful and agreeable - Definitely.
  
• Has administrative ability - For small stuff at least.
  
• Mediates problems - Yup I do.
  
• Avoids conflicts - Yes yes yes!
  
• Good under pressure - Errr. I think so because no matter what I always depend on God to somehow help me through a jam. And He has been there always so far.
  
• Finds the easy way - YES YES YES. But that's sometimes bad isn't it?
  

The Phlegmatic As a Friend

• Easy to get along with - Yup
  
• Pleasant and enjoyable - Depends
  
• Inoffensive - Always. Unless you're too close to me, you might get bombed.
  
• Good listener - Maybe.
  
• Dry sense of humor - Yup yup.
  
• Enjoys watching people -Yes :)
• Has many friends - Hmm. I know many people but I can't say I'm close to many.
  
• Has compassion and concern - I can't say this is accurate but I try.
  

Phlegmatic Weaknesses

The Phlegmatic's Emotions

• Unenthusiastic - nods enthusiastically. =p
  
• Fearful and worried - yup a lot too
  
• Indecisive - you know how long it took me to finish this quiz?!
  
• Avoids responsibility - how does this quiz know me so well?
  
• Quiet will of iron - OK maybe it doesn't know me that well, or do I have a will of iron?
  
• Selfish - Yes, how did they know I'm compassionate AND selfish?
  
• To shy and reticent - Yup sometimes.
  
• Too compromising - Depends, but yep I do overly compromise.
  
• Self-righteous - Gulps. I ... suppose... so.
  

The Phlegmatic As A Parent

• Lax on discipline - Hmm. Perhaps?
  
• Doesn't organize home - NODS fervently.
  
• Takes life to easy - NODS NODS NODS.
  

The Phlegmatic At Work

• Not goal oriented - haha my goal is to finish the work ASAP.
  
• Lacks self motivation - but I do try! I do!
  
• Hard to get moving - hmm this explains a lot.
  
• Resents being pushed - this explains even more!!!
  
• Lazy and careless - Sigh. *hides face*
  
• Discourages others - I hope not. (Maybe I sigh too much though)
  
• Would rather watch - Argh. This quiz ISSS accurate.
  

The Phlegmatic As a Friend

• Dampens enthusiasm - Sadly yes, I am seldom enthu over other people's interests.
  
• Stays uninvolved - Half the time?
  
• Is not exciting - I know I'm dull. :(
  
• Indifferent to plans - Well, unless it's a really, really good plan.
  
• Judges others - Nods.
  
• Sarcastic and teasing - YESSSS :(

I wanted to do the rest but I'm lazy now. (Was there something about laziness at the top?) Anyway if you want to know more just go and do the test yourself and look through the list. Haha. Thanks Tirza for recommending the quiz. It was quite accurate after all. :D

Weekend Updates

Very tired lately. So many things have happened. I'm fighting to find time to study, to find time to just talk to myself over things that have been bugging me emotionally. It hasn't been a happy week though many exciting things supposedly have happened. Feeling very insecure.

This was a week of many first times. Yesterday night we had a Lorry Block Supper outing. We went in groups of 10 or more on different lorries and went to Bedok and Geylang for supper. It was the first time I sat at the back of a lorry. Brings back OMC memories when Swee Yee and I used to squeeze in front with Kelvin driving, or when we got lost trying to find SDU's building with Chun Ping driving.

Sitting behind was very different. We got to blow bubbles too, and it was the first time I actually properly blew bubbles (not counting the times I played with soap while bathing during primary school). But when the lorry was driven out it was hard to blow bubbles anymore. I liked the feeling of the wind rushing by and the scenery moving slowly without and being able to stare straight at the things next to the road without having to look through a glass or something like that. And it gave me plenty of time to think.

I lost something quite precious this weekend. Thanks Tirza and Jon for helping me look everywhere for it, and sorry for causing you two to be so inconvenienced looking for it. My weekend was very unprofitable, because I wasted much time worrying over this. But I still believe God has a purpose in it, and I'll find it somehow. Thank Him I have you two around, thanks for understanding and going out all the way to help.

Room balloting has caused quite some rife and strife among our hall seniors. Everyone's so obsessed with staying together with their cliques that sometimes you wonder if they think that Raffles Hall only consists of their cliques and no one else. All the true colors of Rafflesians show up and many not as cool as green. And it's only for a room that they are going to stay in for just half a semester! It's bad enough if you want to bully people as a group if you have the points to do it, but the thing is, some people don't have enough points and still expect to anyhow have the room they want! No, I'm not talking about people who want to stay in single rooms although singles rooms are lacking this sem. They are those people who expect others to willingly move away from a room of their choice, just because they want to be together with their friends. And those whose faces turn ugly when others displace them. My hand always itches to comment in the chatboxes of the rooms of these 'balloting bullies' but I managed to restrain it with much effort. Hence, I'm ranting in my own blog instead.

I think if someone has worked hard for his/her balloting points last year, (and a tough year it was too), there's no reason why he/she should be expected to ballot for another room just to let you stay with your friends in a particular block. Either not be so choosy and move to some other block with your clique, or stay in different rooms! It's not that the rooms in each block, or even between blocks, are so far apart after all. Don't bully your juniors just because they are too nice/polite to retaliate. Urgh. So disgusting is the way some Rafflesians treat each other, especially for those who claim they love hall. Fortunately, for girls' rooms, there aren't so much politics. Hopefully the JCRC can settle this properly.

On a happier note, we just had a nice reunion dinner with Swee Yee . Going to miss her after she goes to Canada this semester. Swee Yee is like the only person I can always sing and go crazy with in the most normal occassions. OK, maybe with the exception of Wing Mei, but that's a different kind of craziness. It was good to see Alex again too. :) Somehow I think this reunion has brought us all closer together again. Looking forward to staying next door to Zjun and Wen Qiao, and near to Lin Yan as well! We are celebrating Papa Phea's birthday tomorrow too.

Group picture!

I like this picture. Shu Lin, myself, Swee Yee the Megawatt Lightbulb and Jon.

Oh, I just found out I couldn't overload RH-Ed because I'm in Phoenix! Such a shame. :( I really want to join RH-Ed again! I wonder what the rationale behind that is. Maybe they don't want us to double-count for the same articles.

This video has somehow made me feel Malaysian all over again. Being in Singapore makes me feel more like a 'Singapore PR' than Malaysian somehow. But the video has brought back memories of my primary school days and the fact that I told Mable that we should learn to love our country because it is the country we grew up and are groomed to be who we are. I'm glad I found that feeling again. As the world grows more borderless each day, nationalism might mean less and less. But still, to have as sense affliation to a country that you feel that you still belong to, no matter what IC or passport you're holding, or where you're at... I think that's a good thing :)