Tuesday, February 21, 2012

年轻的日子

昨天上面子书, 看到学长在那里写了那么一句:
"我不喜欢五月天的原因,就因为他们的歌总能把我带回强说愁的青春时光."

看了后第一个反应就是去搜索五月天的歌, 因为我很喜欢他们的歌词.
阿信(他们的主唱和作词) 写的词感性又贴心.
听了总让我回到比较年轻的阶段.
那一个年代.

那时, 总是觉得自己和别人不一样.
朋友不太多, 虽然也不算少.
中学生活不算浪漫精彩, 社交活动不多, 课外活动也不多.
可是那时期, 我真的喜欢读书.
读书, 上课, 周末在教会, 对我来说已经很精彩.
没有期待更多.

被理性辖制的少年光会不精彩吗?
没有所谓的"浪漫", "青涩", 更不用说"轰轰烈烈".

今天在公车上和同事聊天.
她说: 乘年轻的时候多尝试新的事.
即将25岁的我, 已经循序渐进的走向三字头的年龄数目.
没有出国的经验, 不曾染发, 作任何美容护理, 也没有到过很多好玩的地方.

我认同年轻的时候追求不一样的经历.
可是如果我定义中的快乐是在家里安静的啃书,
和朋友吃饭看电视;
如果我定义中的幸福是被自己喜欢的人围绕,
我还需要去经历 更多吗?
还是自己不必去寻找已经得到了的事?

如果没有灿烂辉煌的经历, 我的青春是否白度?
我是不时井底之蛙, 看不到什么是外头的蓝天?
可是如果青蛙已经认定自己是幸福的,
为何要出外冒险?
如果我去寻找经历, 它们将如何改变我?
我可以仍然是现在这样的自己吗?
对人对物质的看法和要求会改变吗?

不知道.

Saturday, February 18, 2012

Life Is Short

Can't help recalling my conversation with Geri yesterday. We were talking about how time flies and stuff and we can't believe how old we are suddenly. Do you really think that people who have lived to be in their forties and sixties and eighties have felt that they have lived for long?

I asked Geri if she feels that she has lived/gone-through 25 years of life. She said no (of course she's not exactly 25 on the dot yet). I asked her that because that very morning on the MRT I was imagining what it was like to be 30 years old (and that's not so far away, believe me), then I realized that when you're at a certain age, you don't really feel like you 'lived' that number of years out already.

Age just catches up on you unexpectedly. And you really don't know what is your last number.

Yes, so all those quotes they said about 'Life is Short' is right. Shakespeare was right when he said 'life was a brief candle'. The Bible is right when it said life was like grass. I guess you only really appreciate the brevity of life when you're of a certain age. Throw in multiple sudden death causes, and the likelihood of dying at the moment increases more as time goes by.

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
Wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind

I don't think I'm really afraid of dying at the moment (although a gruesome death would be dreadful). Not that I have a choice. But I'm afraid of losing the people I love. Not so much now as before once I started holding on to Romans 8: 28 once I have these thoughts. Romans 8: 28 goes, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose."

God works all things out for the good of those who love Him. What a reassuring thought. Because when I can't control anything in life, I look upwards for help and am relieved that everything is in His best hands. And I'm thankful that even though my life (and the lives of those I love) is really short, God takes care of His own.

Would you be His and rest your eternal souls in His arms today? For foolish is the man who lays down treasures on earth that will rot away with time - yet neglects his eternal soul. Life is short - so focus on what really matters.

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Behold the Lamb


Behold the Lamb who bears our sins away,
Slain for us: and we remember
The promise made that all who come in faith
Find forgiveness at the cross.

So we share in this Bread of life,
And we drink of His sacrifice,
As a sign of our bonds of peace
Around the table of the King.

The body of our Savior, Jesus Christ,
Torn for you: eat and remember
The wounds that heal, the death that brings us life,
Paid the price to make us one.

The blood that cleanses every stain of sin,
Shed for you: drink and remember
He drained death's cup that all may enter in
To receive the life of God.

And so with thankfulness and faith
We rise to respond: and to remember.
Our call to follow in the steps of Christ
As His body here on earth.

As we share in His suffering,
We proclaim: Christ will come again!
And we'll join in the feast of heaven
Around the table of the King.

We sang this song in church today. It's more a communion song, but we didn't have the Holy Communion today. Still I think it was very meaningful and parts of it made me cry.

I remember when The Passion of Christ just came out we cried buckets of tears over the crucifixion scene. I remember I cried primarily because such brutality was inflicted upon Christ because of my sins. I cried because of what He went through.

Today I cried because as always, I am reminded of His love for me and how miraculous, how undeserving, how powerful, that saving grace is. It's more than Christ just going through a brutal death so that we may live. It's so much more than that. Not just so that those who believe in Him passively escape hellfire into a safe place called heaven. No, if that is what you believe in you totally downplay the magnitude of your salvation.

If you're a believer you were saved unto justification, sanctification, and glorification. Men who before this hated God, and do not know Him; justified from the guilt of sin, sanctified to live a new life, and ultimately glorified with the ranks of being a 'child of God'. Absolute security, absolute love, absolute grace for each day, now and forever. No guilt in life, no fear in death. Freedom to escape condemnation from sin so that we may learn to live a life without sin. Security in knowing that God works all things for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). Security in knowing we are loved with everlasting love, and nothing can move us from His love. All this done through the cross, so that whomsoever who believes, shall not perish (in sin), but have everlasting life.

How can the knowledge of this not change your life. How can this not just fill up your heart and your life and how can you not make knowing Him your priority after what He has done for you.

In the past two days, I've quietly listened through a series of conversations from someone I appreciate and respect that broke my heart. How do you respond to someone who has given up hope that he can be right with God again and that's the way it's going to stay? How do you encourage someone who has attempted to give up a vice for as long as a year, only to relapse into it again due to physical weakness (literally)? When serving in church is viewed as a burden because people 'pull you in' and you're obliged to do it again and again? When the main aim of working day in and day out is so that you get a decent pay and you improve your life and then what? Life is so short. Too short. And it's literally burning away.

The saddest thing is after hearing all this I don't know what to say. It's all and well to pull out Bible verses and say, "I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength." I believe in this, and it helps me, but will it help another who has given up in believing in this? Who has given up in depending on the Lord to saved him in saving him again? I do not know the right things to say and have only remained silent. Who am I to say I've been through the same struggles? I have not.

But thank God when words fail, I can still pray. And thank Him that when I don't understand - He does. And thank Him that although a man's love for God can fail, God's love for His chosen does not fail. It is an encouragement for me. And I still believe that there's room for grace even in what I think is a difficult situation for there is nothing too hard for God to overcome.

And I believe that even though I'm really bad at talking and encouraging people, I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

莫忘初衷

做工久了, 会时而麻木, 时而感慨.
得常提醒自己, 自己当初想进入药剂这行业是为什么, 自己个人在公司里想为上帝做什么.
当工作只是一个规律时, 看不见自己的小小贡献可以挽救生命, 或提高某人的生活素质.
看到自己的上司, 有时也会忘记自己在谁的权威下工作.

我事奉的要是上帝, 不是人.
我要进取不为了自己要往上升.
我的工作要进步, 因为我要为药物的使用者负责任.

做久了, 有时只想追求自己喜欢的事.
忘记 - 这个行业是个奉献, 是个责任.
忘记我是为了这个责任, 而选择在这个行业发展下去.

所以要提醒自己: 莫忘初衷.
这样才能达到我要进取的方向.