Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Of Being Last Minute

I've never been this last minute preparing for a presentation before. I just found out that my lab presentation is tomorrow (which is less than 24 hours from now), not in Week 13 as I thought it was. Thank God I settled my slides much earlier on, else I'll be dead tonight. Presenting shouldn't be much of a problem, but I'm not really good at reading off formulas. And thank God I randomly talked to Kasun and Benjamin during dinner time.

The big problem is I had an appointment with a tutor, and now I have to leave it off last minute. I do hope he checks his email and I didn't make him set aside a whole fat chunk of time for it. Sigh. I feel really irresponsible now.

I feeling like chiong-ing loads of things now but am quite lazy and distracted too! Why are we the first batch to do an FYP interim report that is worth 20% of our grades? Why did I take a module that involves, of all software, Mathematica? And I missed the engineering welfare pack for the first time of my life! I did feel quite depressed over it (and I know it's just a very small thing), but I do like test pads a lot! Anyway Jon kindly gave me one of his so I'm much better now. Stationary cheers me up a lot! But they are so expensive in Singapore!

OK end of random post. Let's see what I can do for tonight.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The Golden Tap

Many Singaporeans might know the 'golden tap' uproar the National Kidney Foundation went through in 2005. The installing of a golden tap in CEO T.T. Durai's private office had led to public outcry over the Durai's private office suite, his salary, use of company cars and first-class air travel. If you don't know the story, click here to take a look.

We discussed this as a case study in our MNO module (Management and Organization). The class was halved in deciding whether Durai was a good leader, or otherwise. The article we read, featured the transforming changes he created, in making the National Kidney Foundation what it was, benefiting countless patients with kidney problems, offering them a wholesome physical and emotional healing, involving their families, and themselves. Durai made a normal charity foundation to be phenomenal. Donations flooded in, and public trust was high.

Yet again it was Durai's extravagant lifestyle and questionably high salary (especially looking at things from the point of view of a charity organization), that caused public confidence to fall, and an immediate retention of donations. When asked, the half the class (or more) in my tutorial group found that there were not any real pressing ethical issues in this case, with regards to Durai. A high pay was legal - and first class air-flights were legal, in a way too. The installation of the golden tap - so what was that? A CEO can spend money any way he likes, could he not? However, it was interesting that many Singaporeans were so highly perturbed by this issue. Of course in the tutorial, there were also issues not brought up like Durai being sentenced to a 3 month jail term for three charges, including fabricating a $20,000 invoice.

Was it fair to say, Durai was not a good leader after all his efforts transforming the face of NKF? He was highly charismatic, and he produced results, and most importantly, the results saved many a Singaporean's life. But there was this other half of the class that doggedly insisted that ethical leadership was crucial to being a good leader. I was in that half. And I'm not bragging that I'm morally superior as compared to Durai or anything. This blog is not presented to judge Durai, nor to judge those that think Durai is a good leader (or otherwise), but just to record some of the more important things I learned in school that will propel myself forward in my career.

We had this lesson today in my leadership module, themed the Ethical, Servant, Spiritual, and Authentic Leadership. One of my classmates asked the Professor a very pertinent question. What about those CEOs, he said, who reap high benefits in terms of salary from company earnings? Is that ethical? Needless to say, my thoughts immediately turned to the case of the golden tap.

To be frank, there is not yet a clear definition defining leadership. It has been defined in many different ways, according to different criteria, and judgement needs to be made. But one thing was crystal clear: The intention is what that truly matters. Looking at a process of a decision, the ends, the means and the outcomes; it should always be known that the ends never justify the means, no matter what. No matter how good the outcome is, if the process of attaining it is not done ethically, it does not justify what you do as right.

Authentic leaders have high self-awareness, knowing their own values and beliefs. The whole point of an authentic leader who leads is to spread these core values within him to his followers, not to attain self-serving means. Otherwise,the leadership is not authentic. In an economical sense, nowadays it makes good sense for people to be ethical in their dealings too, as what they do has high connection to gaining public trust, and motivate followers as leaders. A leader who goes far is willing to make sacrifices, is concerned over the welfare of his followers, and is not too obsessed over the fact that he should be the one gaining credit for his cause.

Successful leadership means pointing people towards a cause, so that they would be motivated to work towards it. If the cause fails along with the leader that does not walk the talk, one might say that even with initial successes and benefits reaps, ultimately after being exposed in the light, the leader fails to convince people to follow him. It has been shown time and again that ethical leadership is especially important during times of crisis, when people look up to see if promises were kept, if a leaders actions is consistent with the company's vision and mission statements, if they could be trusted to work and sacrifice together under a leader's leadership. Such seemingly unprofitable actions (such as Southwest Airlines refusing to layoff during the September 11th crisis), many a time brought in very unexpected gains (the employees were motivated to work hard and be loyal, and in the end the company quickly turned around from the crisis).

I admit that my goals in life are to a large degree self-serving, and when I think of working in a corporate world, there are times where I consider these tempting areas of prestige, high salary and recognition when moving up the ranks. But today, I have been convinced to redesign these aspiration to take up the challenge to try and endorse this authentic leadership, should I have the chance to lead. To lead, not for personal gains; but to spread core values through the work I'm doing. To learn not to always seek credit, but put the job first. That leadership, I feel, would truly go far, and even if the pace and height of my career would not match up eventually, the sense of achievement and satisfaction ultimately gained is immeasurable.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Another batch of songs

Another batch that I like:




I think Lin Yi Chen brought out this song very nicely. It has a different feel from the original, sung by Tank. :D



Orginal:


懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
oh~ 我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

I'm Officially Attached

... to a company named Schering Plough (merged with Merck & Co., Inc.), for my internship next semester (July - December). It's going to be a LONG, LONG, semester. I won't be able to spend Christmas at home! That's the worst part of it all. Better hope this learning experience is worth it.

I won't blog too much about the company, either now or in the future, because I know it's good practice to keep your work life private as much as you can in the blogsphere so I'm adhering to that. But I really want to tell about my interview yesterday, so here goes.

My interview was scheduled to be 10.30 in the morning, but I needed to prepare early because according to GoThere.Sg, the trip is 88 minutes long. And this is the distance I have to travel everyday to work in Tuas. It was raining (or rather pouring) cats and dogs then, and my small umbrella was no match for the mighty rain. I hastily put on a skirt instead of my long pants, because I anticipated what it was going to be like to have the foot of my pants all wet. Nothing could save my poor shoes though. They were utterly drenched. I cabbed part of the way there and it cost me $8 ++.

My interviewer was the lady whom I'm supposed to work under and she had just finished seeing another candidate (a guy). There was this stack of candidate applicant lists on the table and there was mine (with my very ugly passport photo) on the top.

This lady really knows how to put an interviewee at ease. She got me to tell more of myself than I initially planned to, and she got me to trust her and even reveal a number of my shortcomings honestly. She was also very sensitive towards the needs of an intern, having worked with several in the past years. She knew exactly what she wanted, and even told me in advance the challenges, conflicts and problems I might be facing in the future, to make sure that I won't regret after getting the job. After all, being stuck for 6 months in a position you don't like is really very undesirable.

After the interview itself, I did not know its outcome (she mentioned that she had yet another student coming to be interviewed), but I was very much at ease. Firstly, I knew I made a good impression (she seemed like she liked me); Secondly, I learned it was right to be honest in interviews to ensure good person-job-fit; and Thirdly, I wasn't as hard up for an internship as before. In fact, I didn't really think I'd get a job in this company as it was a large company and I am (ahem) relatively unconfident when it comes to academics. (Note that this feeling only applies in Singapore. Gah.) The whole reason I came to the interview was to just look at the interior of the company and get a feel of what its like. Also, many interview experiences do help when it comes to the real thing next time.

Anyway, in the evening, I got an email from the NUS Industrial Attachment department which said that they are taking me in as an intern. Yay!

I could just imagine my life next semester. Wake up at 5 plus am. Board bus at 6.20 am. Work starts at 8 and ends at 5. Traveling takes an hour plus. And I have night classes from 6-9 pm two days a week. Fortunately my work is a 5 day week, so I do have my weekends to myself. It's going to be very tiring after this rather slack semester of mine. But then again, this is indeed the time I learn to overcome my physical tiredness when it comes to working, be disciplined, learn to handle long distances, stress, and learn to communicate with people, especially my superiors. I think the learning experience would be great. The only sad thing is I'm forced to compromise spending my holidays at home. And I can't go back between May-June also because of FYP. I hope I do have time to go back a bit more because my FYP isn't in a very ideal state now.

I remember my interview from Company X last year, which, for reasons not documented here for the sake of the company's privacy, I left because of personal issues. The mindset I had for interview was very different from the ones I had this year. At that time, I was desperate to get a job. This time, I was willing to take up more modules instead if I can't get an attachment, instead of getting stuck in job I couldn't learn anything from. It seemed that the second attitude yielded more positive results. I could be more honest to potential employers, and just tell them all I am capable of and NOT capable of, to let them decide if hiring me is the best option.

I'm also very grateful to the company I mentioned in my previous blog entry, who offered to let me do research work. I had to decline the offer now (and I hate doing that), but at least through this experience, it showed that CAP was not really everything, at least when it comes to internships. I don't know what it is in the real working world though. But I thank God for my two interviewers who were so kind enough to believe in me and accept me as an intern. They just gave me so much more hope for the future, at least in this stage.

So now it's up to me to wrap up this current semester nicely and go all out in the last few weeks before exams. :) Next semester will be totally different, and there will be many new fears I have to face. I feel so apprehensive, yet so hopeful. As always, God will be there to guide me through.