Farewells

I've been in Schering-Plough four months already and have personally said goodbye to three colleagues. There are actually more of them who left, but these actually kind of knew me.

The first was a poly student who ended his internship. I rarely talked to him (except 'hi' and 'bye's), but we sort of lunched together the first few weeks I came - because I ate with some of the chemists. Was quite surprised when he actually came to my desk on his last day and announced that he was leaving. So he was the first person I bade farewell too.

The second colleague was a girl my age who worked in the lab - she stopped working because her contract has ended and she has decided to break from work to pursue her degree. I helped her look through her goodbye letter, and am currently taking over some of her work. I still see her in NUS though - she's in my course and year, though we don't have common modules. We are still keeping in touch.

Today one of the trainers left. I never talked much to him either, except during training and he asked me to help his nephew in year one on the bidding system (eventually I didn't need to help). He's a nice guy. Was rather speechless when he came over my desk to say that it was his last day, and shook hands with me. We exchanged well-wishes.

I know it is not quite long before I myself leave Schering-Plough too. Hence I shall decide here and now to do the following when I leave:

1. To say goodbye and thank every person that I know here.

2. To find out the names of more people. I was very enthu about this during the first month, but later faltered. And I realize I still don't know everyone in my office!

Farewells are hard to say. I hope when I leave I'd at least have done something worth remembering to one (or more persons) in Schering-Plough. And I'd really hate to leave because now I feel quite a part of that world already. I just wish I have more work in my hands for now. :p

I think I like this song more and more :D

Beautiful blending. Heard it first time on the shuttle bus radio on the way to work when I was transversing between the conscious world and the unconscious.

I wish Yoga Lim looked more mature and less 'boyish' though. He's the guy singer in the MV. But his voice is really nice. Mable intro-d me to the existence of this guy last hols. At first I thought he was 'just normal', but found out later that, again, she's right about his voice. :S

Focus Right

October is a stressful month with a whole myriad of things to do. It was amazing how I went to work today with a messy head thinking about 1001 issues and bursting with emotions.

Then I remembered the Lord. And I thought of Him and every negative thought went away.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face,

And the things on earth will go strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.

It was so blissful, and calming and peaceful, remembering the Lord on my way to work in the shuttle bus. God is good. :) And JM is right - once the Lord is our focus, petty little things don't anymore. And I'm glad everything is turning right.

I think I've been spending a lot + other thoughts

I think I've been splurging a bit lately.

Sometimes I spend a little when I feel that I need perks (meaning when I feel bored, or stressed). And now these' perks' come in the form of food.

Well at least it's not clothes and shoes and bags, but still, little things add up to a lot. I think I need a lot of self-control.

Sigh and lately all the FB messages and stuff on the internet, somehow or other remind me that I'm going to graduate soon! I will miss NUS. Yes I will miss this National Uni of Stress/Stairs or whatever you want to call it.

I already don't feel like a student (probably due to IA). I don't feel like continuing my final sem (welcome to Design Project and FYP Presentation). I don't feel like studying while job-hunting. And you know how fast the weeks zoom by. I'll be graduating in no time.

NUS has changed me in so many ways. Both for the better and the worse. I think both directions, equally. It has kind of stretched me a bit. But one nice thing about this place is it has such nice scenery and facilities. And RH is so nice, and my roomie is so nice T__T. I don't want to leave all those.

However, I know we have to say good bye to places, and people, and phases of life eventually. The world is not our home.

So I have > 6 months to prepare for the departure. Hopefully the transition would be smooth. I will miss this place so much!

To Wes who always wanted to come here - I think there's really not too big a deal about NUS. You can success and be at the top anywhere. Singapore has a way of robbing your values, and shaping your thinking in a way most profitable to the nation's economy, but probably numbing your social and emotional senses on the way. If you ask me again, I think it's better not to come here and remain the who you are. I'm happy to be here, but if I could choose all over again, I would have learned earlier to be resistant to all its negative kiasu influences that have pounced on me.

Once you lost yourself, it takes so much effort to find you again.