Thoughts and learnings:
1. Unless The Lord builds, man labor in vain. It is pride to think that any labor or any good works for God can even amount to anything without His participation. It is foolish not to know that God grows. It is foolish to think that we labor and therefore we grow, and therefor we worry because it becomes all about us. Never forget the sovereignty and mightiness of God's hand. Never look down on His work, and never overestimate the impact of our own on our own.
2. Jon is important to me. I don't need a fancy wedding or even a normal conventional one. I need to marry the right person, at the right time, for the right reasons. And relationships are fragile things. How blessed am I to be in one that is meaningful and can grow me. How humbled am I too, that I have nothing to do with its preservation.
3. I know my CG is a place full of people who care for each other. Yes we may be weak at reaching out to each and everyone person, even meeting their needs and making them at home. Yes we may not be sensitive. Yes we have priorities and do not like to over stretch ourselves. But I know if I have a need I just need to ask to receive from them the support I lack. And it is the same for me to them. Thanks for being consistent and being there for each other. I love you guys.
4. Work is just as important as I make it to be. I need to preserve my testimony and be Christ like at work. Yet I do not have to cross my personal physical and emotional boundaries to fulfill obligations. And favor comes from God. Not men.
5. I am just a girl with a lot of pride trying to do well, and care a lot about how people perceive me. And yet the gospel is about a finished work. Not an ongoing pursuit of excellence. It is a pursuit for desire, fueled by desire. It is a pursuit for glory, fuels by thanksgiving and humility and faith. It is a pursuit of a work not completed by ourselves but the finished work of divine love. Thank God for the gospel. For saving me from my sins, and my self.
