Haven't been writing reports for ages (in fact haven't been writing anything much except filling up forms and data sheets), and it took me so long to finish my yearly performance report! Told my team that it would take me 30 min but I took almost triple of that despite having recorded what I did throughout the year.
I remember last time I used to say that NUS has made me a professional report generator because that was what I did all year long: do reports for every single project I'm involved in and edit those of other people. But now 3 pages of a performance outline can send me to a four hour sleep in between and I had to struggle to finish it up after that.
I seriously need to write more.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
还遥远
面对最大的考验
不是在面对难关时是否应付自如
而是以怎样的态度应付
我虽然闯关了
可是没有献上最美好的自己
这两天我知道我离开终点站的距离还远
却要为这让我谦卑下来的醒悟感恩。
It is not a question of speed,
But the words I say,
The thoughts I think,
The way I do things,
That moment when my priorities and values change.
我不能让环境把我拿走。
I will not be conformed.
不是在面对难关时是否应付自如
而是以怎样的态度应付
我虽然闯关了
可是没有献上最美好的自己
这两天我知道我离开终点站的距离还远
却要为这让我谦卑下来的醒悟感恩。
It is not a question of speed,
But the words I say,
The thoughts I think,
The way I do things,
That moment when my priorities and values change.
我不能让环境把我拿走。
I will not be conformed.
Wednesday, November 14, 2012
Relapse
I remember almost one year ago I had my first recordable mistake in the lab. I was very upset over it and everyone comforted me over it.
A few days ago I did it again. The circumstance different, the root cause different but the mistake the same. I felt really ashamed as my colleagues were concerned over my feelings and even my supervisor did not reprimand me.
I am no longer a kid who should be protected from the consequences of the mistakes she makes, regardless of the circumstance. I am fully capable if bearing the concrete and emotional responsibilities of my errors.
I am thankful over everyone's concern towards my feelings. Although I am not as depressed over this as last time, I will take this seriously, and be reminded to always be focused, to always take no chances irregardless if how many things I am doing at once.
There is still so much more I need to improve on.
A few days ago I did it again. The circumstance different, the root cause different but the mistake the same. I felt really ashamed as my colleagues were concerned over my feelings and even my supervisor did not reprimand me.
I am no longer a kid who should be protected from the consequences of the mistakes she makes, regardless of the circumstance. I am fully capable if bearing the concrete and emotional responsibilities of my errors.
I am thankful over everyone's concern towards my feelings. Although I am not as depressed over this as last time, I will take this seriously, and be reminded to always be focused, to always take no chances irregardless if how many things I am doing at once.
There is still so much more I need to improve on.
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Tired
These two nights have been hectic. One toilet trip per night for me at the start of the shift. The rest of the time without toilet trips nor water. And it it That Time of the Month.
It's not the first time but I think this is unnecessary. So much administration waste could have been cut down.
But I'm thankful to belong to a team that trusts and helps one another. And I think I am getting more and more well trained to be an adept multi tasker now in things that were once foreign to me.
On a side note: I finally gave up trying to remember buying evening primrose oil after going home and brought it here instead, Singapore priced or whatever. It's helping me with pimple control now and can see the diff after just one or two days. Hopefully I can be pimple free by end of the year. Shift work requires good hormonal regulation.
It's not the first time but I think this is unnecessary. So much administration waste could have been cut down.
But I'm thankful to belong to a team that trusts and helps one another. And I think I am getting more and more well trained to be an adept multi tasker now in things that were once foreign to me.
On a side note: I finally gave up trying to remember buying evening primrose oil after going home and brought it here instead, Singapore priced or whatever. It's helping me with pimple control now and can see the diff after just one or two days. Hopefully I can be pimple free by end of the year. Shift work requires good hormonal regulation.
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