相片里儿时的模样记录着年少的时光
曾经在你我的心中
要登上月亮 要飞越太平洋
多年后 我们都成长 告别了清涩和迷惘
曾经在你我的心中 编织的梦想是否已遗忘
人生的理想是为主发光
拭去了泪水使我们更坚强
路依然漫长别失去盼望
痛苦时记得有主在你身旁
为主来梦想 为主来发光
虽然有挫折 但我不用沮丧
主是我力量 主指引方向
我们的日子有梦想
有灿烂的阳光
Found this song that has been ringing around my head lately. Its quite unusual for a song to stay in my head when I haven't been listening to it so long. Anyway there was one point of my life that I really loved this one. Its a very nice song, well sung and well written. It's one of the type of songs that I wished I'll be able to write. During that brief window of my life, when I tried my hands on composing, I wanted to come up with this kind of lyrics (I was actually more interested in lyric-writing than writing the music). I wanted to write something people would actually think about, when they sang the song, something rather than those normal cliche lines that are reproduced from one song to another. For those who don't know Chinese, its about reminiscing the days when we were having a dream for God, and picking up those dreams again.
I haven't shared this with anyone yet, but since its nothing to be embarrassed about I guess I'll share it here. Back when I was Form1-Form3 (I can't remember exactly which year), I actually wanted to be a doctor and work in the mission field. :) Anyway after that I realized how foolish it was to have a dream so that I could just stand in the forefront and do God's work, without considering if that was really the thing God wanted me to do. I'll never make a good doctor, for I don't have that much love within me to sustain myself through those tough hours; and even if I do... I don't know, maybe it just wasn't in me to care for others that way. That's why eventually I concluded that I don't have that in me to make a good doctor, or even a good teacher. Last time one of my teachers kept asking me to become a teacher. I said no, but I didn't tell him why. The truth is I knew that even if I became a teacher, all I'd care of is the results of my students, and maybe the admin work I'm supposed to do, but I don't have that much love in me to care about their lives. It will be too taxing on me I think.
I still don't want to be a doctor or a teacher; but I want that spirit of mine back again. The heart that says, God, I'll do for you what I can do best in. At that point it was studying. Sharing things I've read. Playing the piano. Leading small activities. Blogging and forum moderating. Thinking of and praying for people. Now, I've lost myself. I don't see what I'm good at, because everywhere I see people way better than me in every area. NUS does give me an inferiority complex.
I love the Bible study discussions we were having lately. It was not just one discussion or another, but a strong cumulative effect that showed me that in this life, it's not about us, it's about God. My favorite Philippians 4:13 ~ I can do all things in Christ who gives me strength, is not supposed to be limited, or may I say, degraded, to tell me that God will pull me through my exams, and this dreadful rat race I'm about to be in, only. Life is not about being a rat, its about a bigger macro view of telling God's love to others, one way or another, so that they may see and be saved. That is what this verse, and many of his promises that I used to blindly claim - and limit, to my exams, is really about.
That God hates sin, all men will be judged, and even Christians need to know this.
For be doers of the word, and not hearers only deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of a word, and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was.
James 1: 22-24
Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on the house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.
But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.
Matt 7:24-26
Life is really not about building up empires, getting famous, doing things people have never done before, and to boast of it. True, it is what the world values, and what, as they may tell you, being young is all about.
Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, And the years draw near when you say, I have no pleasure in them. - Ecc 12:1
and,
Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity. 1Tim 4:12
Yes I know we've all learned 1 Tim 4:12 since we were primary school kids or so, but how many of us know that being an example to believers isn't about carrying on your everyday life and thinking: this is enough? And this is my way of being an example? Christians need to stretch their comfort zone, stop being passive, and go further than that.
It all starts with a dream, but it doesn't stop there. And as I stand here at one of the cliffs of life, thinking, wondering, and dreaming: This is the time to claim the promises of God. This is the time to claim Phillippians 4:13. :)
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