Thursday, April 8, 2010

Of songs and presentations and other stuff



This is the song that kind of kick-started to my radio-listening days after Form 5 during the post-SPM holidays :) The first time I hear of it was in my driving instructor's car after my driving lessons. That was the first time I really liked Wang Lee Hom's songs, and liked Chinese pop songs as a whole. Now I'm basically very much a Chinese Pop Song person. I still listen to a very narrow range of songs, so it's not hard to get impressed with a specific genre like this.

And yes, I know there are plenty of nicer Lee Hom songs (and MVs) but this is the first one I kind of fell in love with, so I like it still. Haha. But I must admit there are other songs that touched me more.

One of the reasons I like listening to Chinese songs is the lyrics. To me, the melody kind of plays a second fiddle if the lyrics of the songs are really good. :D Though it's really crucial to make a song nice too. But still, lyrics come first. A good example would be the song 'The Rose'. It has the nicest lyrics, but why does it have to have such a monotonous tune? Still the lyrics did manage to pull up my impression of the song to a very large degree. If there were no lyrics and just the melody, there's no chance I'd listen to the song The Rose twice. (Unless it was sung by Westlife, and I happened to see their MV. Or better still, the GLCC Campus version for Kailing's birthday.)

My lab presentation (the one I was almost not aware of) came and went. Frankly speaking, I'm quite numb with doing presentations now (group presentations, not those with just myself in front of the whole class). Still, I can't help being a little nervous when I imagine myself doing my FYP presentation one year ahead, all alone in front of a few professors (and an audience). Presenting alone is not that, but the thought of being bombarded with questions at the end and having to handle all that by myself makes me shudder. I'm seriously not a Q&A person.

Today's presentation went quite well. One thing I note about my presentations is that I have a clear voice, can explain things well, and don't need small notes in hand; but I have the most horrible eye-contact and blank expressions (I think people who see me translate in church could more or less attest to that). I saw that first-hand in my MNO presentation video. Some how I don't like to establish eye-contact with people while giving speeches. It makes me feel uneasy. In the end, I end up spoiling my overall presentation outlook. Thankfully, the eye-contact thing is generally not a problem during interviews. I feel more at ease during job interviews compared to presentations. Sigh. Even I can't bare the sight of myself giving a speech.

Somehow within this one year, I must train myself to be more at ease when doing public speaking to make my speeches more appealing in general. Maybe smiling a little bit might help release the tension too. But it won't help either if the smiling looks too fake. The only times I could do 'public speaking' properly is when I do informal sharing in fellowship groups, or lead activities in youth fellowship (few years ago).

As I grow up I realize there are so many tings I need to brush up, not just physical things like this; but also my whole outlook towards learning and perceiving others, as well as attitudes toward things. It is weird that it is things that I felt proud of years ago, that I feel I need to change now, because it's getting in the way of me being a better person. Sometimes these thoughts come when I'm showering, or randomly doing work, or when I'm falling asleep in bed. I guess all these change in mindset is part of a process called growing up. I learned that a person's personality is a very stable thing and its hardest to change, unless there is a dire sense of urgency to do so. That's why no matter how many revelations I have, it is still hard to act upon those discoveries.

It's going to be the last week of the semester (before reading week and exam week), and many final years are feeling quite nostalgic about entering a new phase of life soon. I could see so from reading blogs and facebook updates. They make me feel nostalgic too, although there is a full year ahead before its my turn to graduate. Next semester I'll enter the working world as an intern. And the semester after that I would be doing a frantic job-hunt as well as searching for a place to stay. Singapore isn't exactly very kind to its working professionals, unless you're already somewhere at the top of the ladder. Starting out like this feels like stepping out into a hostile environment, away from the sheltered facilities and open learning experiences in NUS. It will be an entirely different world. I hope by that time, I would have prepared myself enough to be able to cope.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Of Being Last Minute

I've never been this last minute preparing for a presentation before. I just found out that my lab presentation is tomorrow (which is less than 24 hours from now), not in Week 13 as I thought it was. Thank God I settled my slides much earlier on, else I'll be dead tonight. Presenting shouldn't be much of a problem, but I'm not really good at reading off formulas. And thank God I randomly talked to Kasun and Benjamin during dinner time.

The big problem is I had an appointment with a tutor, and now I have to leave it off last minute. I do hope he checks his email and I didn't make him set aside a whole fat chunk of time for it. Sigh. I feel really irresponsible now.

I feeling like chiong-ing loads of things now but am quite lazy and distracted too! Why are we the first batch to do an FYP interim report that is worth 20% of our grades? Why did I take a module that involves, of all software, Mathematica? And I missed the engineering welfare pack for the first time of my life! I did feel quite depressed over it (and I know it's just a very small thing), but I do like test pads a lot! Anyway Jon kindly gave me one of his so I'm much better now. Stationary cheers me up a lot! But they are so expensive in Singapore!

OK end of random post. Let's see what I can do for tonight.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

The Golden Tap

Many Singaporeans might know the 'golden tap' uproar the National Kidney Foundation went through in 2005. The installing of a golden tap in CEO T.T. Durai's private office had led to public outcry over the Durai's private office suite, his salary, use of company cars and first-class air travel. If you don't know the story, click here to take a look.

We discussed this as a case study in our MNO module (Management and Organization). The class was halved in deciding whether Durai was a good leader, or otherwise. The article we read, featured the transforming changes he created, in making the National Kidney Foundation what it was, benefiting countless patients with kidney problems, offering them a wholesome physical and emotional healing, involving their families, and themselves. Durai made a normal charity foundation to be phenomenal. Donations flooded in, and public trust was high.

Yet again it was Durai's extravagant lifestyle and questionably high salary (especially looking at things from the point of view of a charity organization), that caused public confidence to fall, and an immediate retention of donations. When asked, the half the class (or more) in my tutorial group found that there were not any real pressing ethical issues in this case, with regards to Durai. A high pay was legal - and first class air-flights were legal, in a way too. The installation of the golden tap - so what was that? A CEO can spend money any way he likes, could he not? However, it was interesting that many Singaporeans were so highly perturbed by this issue. Of course in the tutorial, there were also issues not brought up like Durai being sentenced to a 3 month jail term for three charges, including fabricating a $20,000 invoice.

Was it fair to say, Durai was not a good leader after all his efforts transforming the face of NKF? He was highly charismatic, and he produced results, and most importantly, the results saved many a Singaporean's life. But there was this other half of the class that doggedly insisted that ethical leadership was crucial to being a good leader. I was in that half. And I'm not bragging that I'm morally superior as compared to Durai or anything. This blog is not presented to judge Durai, nor to judge those that think Durai is a good leader (or otherwise), but just to record some of the more important things I learned in school that will propel myself forward in my career.

We had this lesson today in my leadership module, themed the Ethical, Servant, Spiritual, and Authentic Leadership. One of my classmates asked the Professor a very pertinent question. What about those CEOs, he said, who reap high benefits in terms of salary from company earnings? Is that ethical? Needless to say, my thoughts immediately turned to the case of the golden tap.

To be frank, there is not yet a clear definition defining leadership. It has been defined in many different ways, according to different criteria, and judgement needs to be made. But one thing was crystal clear: The intention is what that truly matters. Looking at a process of a decision, the ends, the means and the outcomes; it should always be known that the ends never justify the means, no matter what. No matter how good the outcome is, if the process of attaining it is not done ethically, it does not justify what you do as right.

Authentic leaders have high self-awareness, knowing their own values and beliefs. The whole point of an authentic leader who leads is to spread these core values within him to his followers, not to attain self-serving means. Otherwise,the leadership is not authentic. In an economical sense, nowadays it makes good sense for people to be ethical in their dealings too, as what they do has high connection to gaining public trust, and motivate followers as leaders. A leader who goes far is willing to make sacrifices, is concerned over the welfare of his followers, and is not too obsessed over the fact that he should be the one gaining credit for his cause.

Successful leadership means pointing people towards a cause, so that they would be motivated to work towards it. If the cause fails along with the leader that does not walk the talk, one might say that even with initial successes and benefits reaps, ultimately after being exposed in the light, the leader fails to convince people to follow him. It has been shown time and again that ethical leadership is especially important during times of crisis, when people look up to see if promises were kept, if a leaders actions is consistent with the company's vision and mission statements, if they could be trusted to work and sacrifice together under a leader's leadership. Such seemingly unprofitable actions (such as Southwest Airlines refusing to layoff during the September 11th crisis), many a time brought in very unexpected gains (the employees were motivated to work hard and be loyal, and in the end the company quickly turned around from the crisis).

I admit that my goals in life are to a large degree self-serving, and when I think of working in a corporate world, there are times where I consider these tempting areas of prestige, high salary and recognition when moving up the ranks. But today, I have been convinced to redesign these aspiration to take up the challenge to try and endorse this authentic leadership, should I have the chance to lead. To lead, not for personal gains; but to spread core values through the work I'm doing. To learn not to always seek credit, but put the job first. That leadership, I feel, would truly go far, and even if the pace and height of my career would not match up eventually, the sense of achievement and satisfaction ultimately gained is immeasurable.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Another batch of songs

Another batch that I like:




I think Lin Yi Chen brought out this song very nicely. It has a different feel from the original, sung by Tank. :D



Orginal:


懂得让我微笑的人
再没有谁比你有天份
轻易闯进我的心门
明天的美梦你完成
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
懂得让我流泪的人
给的感动一定是最深
在我心中留下伤痕
你同时点亮了星辰
整个宇宙
浩瀚无边的尽头
每颗渺小星球
全都绕着你走
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦
那麽多相遇
偏偏只和你
天造地设般产生奇迹
oh~ 我心的缝隙
我想除了你
任谁也无法填补这空虚
爱我 非你莫属
我只愿 守护
由你给我的幸福
爱我 非你莫属
也许会 笑着哭
但那人是你所以
不怕苦