Been talking with Jon yesterday and I realized that the blur blur and impatient and relatively immature boy has grown up a big fat lot through the years. Especially recently.
And I realized I've been left behind from his social circle, his ministries, his growth and passions. I've allowed him to grow but yet I've never joined in that growth. Except for teaching him some Chinese words I think I hardly helped much.
I miss the days when there was less dryness less apathy and more drive. To be immature to be impatient to be aggravated but all for the things of God's kingdom. I have now become emotionally stable and understanding with regards to many weaknesses of other people. I guess this is good for compassion, but on the other hand I have been apathetic toward my own apathy.
And there were some things that he saw that were so true it hurt. I seriously think if I left myself be stagnant at the little things I am doing now 'to serve', if I don't drink deep from that fountain of truth and love soon we will breach into two different roads of growth altogether and I will be left standing still in the dust.
Thank God for iron that sharpens iron. Thank God for painful reminders. Thank God for promising to sanctify me wholly as He justified me wholly, and even though the process may hurt He will have me go through it. For nothing will satisfy me more than being drawn deeper and closer to Him.
Branching off saperate ways spiritually, that's the reason Yiren cited for calling it quits with his ex which he discovered after going through their marriage counselling.
ReplyDeleteBut that's not God's plan for us. His plan is always good, pleasing and perfect. That we build each other up in Christ, and support each other and cheer each other on in the service for His Kingdom. God's love is never to throw away the old and replace with a new that is better. God's business is always in renewing what is old that it may be perfect. He CHANGES lives...
I thank God that you have always been a great source of encouragement to me in all my ministries, and I pray that you'll continue to be. Yes, it's hard to not grow dry and to lose drive, but his grace is sufficient for us. As Tim Keller puts it, knowing the nature of your enemy is extremely crucial -- Many a war has been loss due to lack of intelligence and espionage on the enemy. In the spiritual battle, knowing the way your enemies may weaken you is already a great step forward, it helps us to pray, and to know where to focus our attention.